Not-So-Pleasant Days

Today wasn't a very pleasant day for me. After class, I left school and went to the mall to help a friend of mine buy something. The mall was just 5 mins away if we choose to walk. We left at around 5pm in school, and I was hoping to arrive at my dorm by 6pm since I have a curfew and my parents keep on checking up on me. When we got to the mall, I told my dad that I'm at the mall and I'll be back at around 6pm (He wants me to update him all the time where I am). But my friend and I lost track of the time and I was able to go back to my dorm at 7pm.


Of course, like any other parent, when they found out that it's late and I passed my dorm curfew, they got furious. I also blame myself for not being responsible. When I got back at the dorm, my dad reprimanded me on the phone. I got a bit disappointed with myself and apologized to my parents. All I could say was "Sorry" and *"Opo" the whole time.
*"Opo": Filipino word for "yes", in a respectful way. Used for older people.


I got upset for a while, but I told myself that it was also my fault. I got a bit teary-eyed, but after that I chose to still smile. Not because I want to hide the pain I felt, but because I realized that there are still a lot of things to be thankful for.


Thank God for my dormmates who still made me laugh, and for my friend who prayed for me before I talked to my dad on the phone. I thank God for the fellowship I had with my friends today and for always being there to comfort me. He is the reason why we should still rejoice despite our not-so-pleasant days, for God is God and God is good. ^^


All of the bad things happening to us is nothing compared to what Jesus Christ went through for us.


It could have been an irritable situation for me that my parents got mad. But, I chose not to let it ruin my day.

When I had my quiet time after a long day, the Lord gave me words of encouragement:

"4 Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again—rejoice! .... 6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:4, 6-7 (NLT)

Thank God for inner peace and joy. It's only in God where we could find true and everlasting joy. GOD IS GOOD! ^^

A Mother's Love

I hope this will serve as an inspiration for teenagers with regards to their relationship with their parents. ^^ It's a bit long, but I hope you guys will get something from it. ^^

Today, we celebrated my mom's birthday at SM Megamall with my dad and other two friends in UA&P during lunch time. It was fun, and I get to spend time with my parents even for just a short while because I'm already living in a dorm. I won't be seeing them that often now. As I reminisce about the past few years I was with my mom, all I can say is: It's amazing how God worked things between my mom and I. Here's how it all worked:

While growing up, I couldn't always say that my relationship with my mom was good. There were feelings of bitterness and resentment that hindered me from loving and caring for her. Her desire to control me led me to silent rebellion and low self esteem. Whenever I would get hurt, my friends are the ones who would listen to me rant and I would always tell them how I disliked my mom. I wasn't really open to my mom and never dared to talk to her about my thoughts, emotions, happenings in school, or any other things that she could be concerned of as a mother.

I didn't like the discipline she imposed on me. Sometimes her words hurt so much that I thought of committing suicide or running away from home. Even as a young kid in elementary school, specifically when I was around 13 years old, I thought of those things. But, of course, I couldn't do it. For 17 years, I endured her.

There came a time when one of my friends invited me to a camp held by Victory Ortigas in Bataan last April 2010. It was the turning point of my life and slowly, I fully understood God's love for me. I was able to forgive my mother as Christ has forgiven me of my sins. Even though she didn't apologize to me directly, I decided to forgive her and prayed to God for a better relationship with my mom. I felt peace and joy inside of me that I couldn't describe. Even if she throw insults at me again and again, I would still forgive her, turn to God and pray unceasingly. Every time I get hurt, my fellowship with God becomes more intimate.

There wasn't any drastic change between the relationship of my mom and I immediately after the camp I mentioned previously. It was only after 2 years that I realized that there was a subtle change between us. God made me realize how vast and glorious a mother's heart is that sometimes we tend to misunderstand it.

My mom just cares for me so much that even though it would make me dislike her, she would still persevere and do whatever it takes for me to have a good life. It was just my pride and selfishness that got in the way of seeing my mother as a gift from God. I know that through the years we've been together, I've only expressed my love and appreciation for her only a few times... And I thought, "Maybe that's what she needed more from me?". The question is not "What can she do for me?" but, "What can I do for her?".

Now, I spend more time with my mom compared before. We would go together to their Victory group every Thursday (whenever I get the chance to join), do chores, bake, cook, go shopping and talk more comfortably. Sometimes I would even be the one to help her get her nails done or go with her wherever she needs to go even if know that I won't really be doing anything but to follow her around. Time was probably one of the things I wasn't able to give her back then which explains her anger towards me. Recently, I also noticed that she's becoming more even-tempered. Instead of having dinner with my mom nagging in front of us every night (as she does before), our dinner time conversations improved. Sometimes we would laugh at each other, or talk about serious matters more calmly.

At first I hesitated spend quality time with her, but by God's grace, I was able to express my love for her more. ^^ It was a decision I made to love her despite the past painful emotions I had. We are more open to each other now. And this clearly shows that restoration between parent/s and child is possible through Jesus Christ.

I thank God for my mother and for all the things that happened between us, both good and bad. I thank my mom for the discipline she instilled in me, for forcing me to play the violin, and for taking care of me everyday. I know my mom cares and loves me deeply. I was just stubborn and didn't understand it at first. Thank you, Lord~! ^^

I love my mom! HAPPY BIRTHDAY to her. :3

"What is your mother? A lioness among the lions! She lay down among the young lions and reared her cubs." - Ezekiel 19:2

Blessed to have my Spiritual Family

Today was just amazing! :3


I was able to have real fellowship with two of my close spiritual sisters. We shared a lot about each other in a much more intimate way and confessed our inner conflicts. What's really good about it was we were all transparent. At the end of our conversation, we prayed for each other.


After that, I went to one of my closest friends who's also part of our barkada in High School. I'm always open to people (especially to my "sisters"), but there's this certain area in my life that bothered me for months and I don't know how to tell my other friends. I kept on worrying about it and prayed to God how to handle the situation. He would tell me that I needed accountability every time I ask Him. So, I decided to tell her because I knew that the negative things which are kept inside of us will grow and might even destroy us.


This is why accountability is very important. We need people to help us grow with in Christ. We need godly people who are trustworthy, so that when we fall, they can help us back up. It says in Ecclesiastes:


"Two are better than one, because they have a good return of their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up." - Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 (NIV)


While I was on my way home from church, I felt peace after telling her everything.


I don't know why I'm blogging this. I'm just happy, I guess. :)) HAHA.


I'm so blessed to have these godly people around me. :>

"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective."
- James 5:16 (NIV)